@thefridayfive 2025.12.20

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1. What is one thing about you that you hate?
The self-loathing. :( I thought working on my weaknesses and improving myself would help, but my brain keeps pointing out reasons for why I'm not good enough which sometimes leads to depressive episodes. </3

2. What is one thing about you that you love?
A pretty strong sense of self. It protects my wallet from consumerist culture. And every now and then people ask me what I think about [piece of media], which is very validating haha.

3. If you had to change one thing about you what would it be and why?
I'd like to be better at speaking/expressing my thoughts IRL, to be honest. I don't speak very well and I'm even worse at trying to explain things or tell a story. I always feel so bad for anyone who's listening to me. :')

4. What is one word that you would use to define yourself?

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5. Imagine what you would look like in a perfect world...what do you look like?
Let us not reopen the door to dysmorphia. :')

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Fell ill right as I was hitting a precious two-day work lull. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Just did a quick grocery run for soup stuff, only to realize that what my body desires is not hot and savory soups, but cold and sweet treats. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Shows I've rotated in this time period:
百妖譜 Fairies Album S2
2 eps in: Still a nice bedtime watch that always feels worth it when you get to the emotional parts, and still one I can only watch 2 eps at a time of. I don't think I'll be able to finish it before it leaves Netflix. :(

Glass Heart
3 eps in: Jdrama about a drummer who gets kicked out of a band on the day of a big performance. Three years later, she gets invited to join a much Cooler band. Yay, fictional bands! The drummer is pretty much the only woman in the band scene (she does audition for an all-girls band but gets rejected), but one of the solo artists they meet is a woman. The intro was so good I was convinced I'd finally found a show I could get into, but it's fizzled out. I kind of want to soldier on because they introduce a new song for every episode which has been great and is obviously (or at least presumably) leading up to a spectacular finale. But the writing is thin and lacks the self-awareness to make the stupid parts work so I'm very unmotivated. I'm also surprised that the MC doesn't appear to have any lingering feelings about her previous band, but maybe that's something they'll address later on?

我的小确幸 My Little Happiness
6 eps in: A relatively bingeable modern-day romcom from 2021 set in Shenzhen. The romance is stupid-cute but hits the right emotional notes for the FL, an aspiring lawyer who has been assigned to a hospital for her internship and is trying to keep everything secret from her mother who disagrees with her career path. The ML is a neurosurgeon that the FL works with, so there's a hospital drama aspect to it. There's also an element of competition to the internship but they're all managing different clients so there's not much interaction and as snide as the other interns are there's no outright bullying (yet?). Am I going to finish it. Probably not. But finishing 6 eps is a pretty impressive record for 2025!me.