Priest, "橋頭樓上" chapters 1-13: reading + vocabulary log

[halfcactus]

Originally meant to read two chapters / week, something I managed to do with the two other cnovels I finished this year, but my ability to focus on anything has been in shambles. I'm lucky if I even finish a chapter a week. /o\

Reading log:

Chapter 1-2

Chapter 3-7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10-12

Chapter 13

Vocabulary log

Chapters 1 - 7:




Miao Miao chapter and onwards:

Anxiety / attention / dysfunction things

I'm trying to get back into journaling for the 398740340th time so my brain can calm down, but once again I'm lucky if I even manage to take down my (work) notes and to-do-list... for the past week, I've been going rogue and starting new unrelated and unimportant tasks that I've been procrastinating from for years... and once I stop, I never continue any of them either. So now my workspace is just a map of my distractions. Here are the papers I was shredding before I got up to answer a call, there are the pile of files I was sorting.... Here are the objects I meant to move to a more logical place when I was cleaning out a drawer, there is the folder I moved so I could have a smoother workflow to finish that 10-minute task. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Meanwhile I'm barely keeping up with the more "important" aspects of my work... I can project the illusion of working hard and getting big stuff done, but there's so much that has fallen under the cracks and that I've shoved away from view, in the hopes that future!me will feel like picking them up. 😂

Similarly, I spend all my free time trying to read/watch ten minutes of something new and inevitably I give up and get stuck in a loop of trying to figure out how to optimize my "fun" time. I've been having sleep issues again too, so I think... my anxiety has come back to take over my life. XD I spent most of July avoiding all thought and sleeping as much as I can, and maybe that helped a bit, because my insomnia and intense midnight hunger pangs haven't been as bad as they were in the first half of the year... But I'd really like to be able to just relax like a normal person haha.

Comments

[nnozomi]

I'm awed by your vocabulary log, thank you for posting that! It's amazing. (Also I love 乌龙, imagine how much blunder tea I've drunk in the last few years...) Good luck with continued reading, and also with journaling etc. (to a non-stressful extent).

[halfcactus]

Thank you!

I mean, if I'm going to make the effort to read a book, I might as well make the effort to try remembering the words. XD

[geraineon]

I love all your illustrations! They are so adorable <3

Re: Attention/Anxiety

I'm sorry that's been happening. The analysis paralysis of trying to optimize fun time definitely doesn't help (I get into these loops too, and then end up doing nothing). /sends hugs/ I hope you'll be able to get all the rest you need! and that anxiety leaves you alone soon.

[halfcactus]

Thanks!

Yeah, it seems like analysis paralysis is natural as you get older and no longer have as much time and energy to allocate on things you recognize as your interests? But I also feel so betrayed that anxiety adapts to your circumstances and you'll never be free until you learn to deal with it haha. Why!!!!! ヽ(；▽；)ノ

[lessonsinescapology]

Sorry to hear about the anxiety issue. I think that happens to many of us. We're busy and tired then need time to recharge and do chores then realise there's not much left for the fun stuff😅