April and May

[halfcactus]

Health, recently: Feeling extremely lucky to have been pretty physically healthy these past couple of months! There were multiple weeks when I was living on a huge sleep deficit and trying to catch up, but I haven't fallen sick. Back health and gut health have also been doing unprecedentedly well even though I've been too lazy to make healthy choices, ie. eating/drinking a lot of junk, working out a lot less, barely doing my stretches. I'd like to believe I owe my life to mango season... My fruit intake has increased because I have to eat them before they get overripe haha.

Fandom, recently: I honestly can't believe that I made 7 fanvids in a span of month, and by request, and of canons I haven't watched in 4+ years (JitD notwithstanding). And with a wonky computer that crashes every week or so. I'm dissatisfied with most of them in the sense I wish I had more time to refine them, but tbh without the need to juggle everything and have them done by deadline, I wouldn't have created anything at all. The Qihun side of the experience was really nice too because it felt like a group project, both the donating and creating process.

Tender Light: Trying to watch 1.5 eps/day and am now halfway! I watched most of the first 10 eps at 1.5x-2x speed, but since the show is getting meatier and the (hopefully) most stressful parts of Nan Ya's storyline have been revealed, I've been watching at regular speed. For all the flaws and high drama, it genuinely has stuff that are interesting for me, and I am very attached to the kids. Zhou Luo is still so opaque so I don't know towards which direction the needle of his moral compass will stop, but he does have multiple relationship arcs that make you want to see the rest of his storyline to see what choices he makes.

Groupwatches, recently: finished the second seasons of both She Loves to Cook, She Loves to Eat and What Did You Eat Yesterday?—it was nice to watch both and see different strains of commentary on the LGBT experience in Japan. Currently watching Ancient Detective.

She Belongs to Me: I am halfway through! It doesn't feel like it! Because nothing's happening! There was a miscommunication storyline that I thought would have been a good place to have some angst and emotional revelations, but they resolve it in the most annoying way, through improbable conversations and mind-reading. Like, why create this conflict at all!!! (I did like the part where the younger side characters get into a fight, which is probably the most drama I'll get from this lol.)

待我有罪时 (When I'm Guilty) by Ding Mo: I was checking out the ebook sample for this, and am definitely not going to pay for the whole thing since it's formatted badly (no table of contents or chapter divisions + a lot of missing punctuation)... and anyway Kindle's built-in CN-EN dictionary can't hold my hand the way Pleco does. I doubt I'll be continuing since this is too long for me, but it has good tension so far and chapters are short. Like, it has me wanting to read the next chapter and find out who gets murdered. Hopefully not all of the innocent people in this campsite!? Not good to read when you're planning to travel, though. ^^;

I haven't journaled in a month and I'm feeling myself spiralling. Not even writing my to-do-lists anymore. And even now I can't bring myself to sit down and open my journal. :(

Comments

[lassarina]

Mangoes are a lifesaver. The only reason I got nutrition and energy after surgery was mango smoothies.

For journaling - would writing on just a plain piece of paper (so that it's not the "impact" of a "real" journal entry) help to start? I've had to train myself into "yep I sure didn't update my bullet journal last week *turn the fucking page* self."

[halfcactus]

Mango smoothies!!! ♥ I'm glad they were there for you, surgery sounds rough.

Haha the way my brain works is that I need there is only one "right" pen and one "right" notebook... I wish I can train myself into writing on other sheets of paper, because I actually used to do that when I was younger!!! Kinda glad to see I'm not the one who has weird hang-ups about bullet journaling, though.

[lassarina]

Honestly I would not be surprised to find that every bullet journaler has at least one "weird hang-up" because of the kind of person who tends to be drawn to it....

I hope you find a solution! ♥